I've run out of words to describe the pain I feel when I see you like this.

Even my eyes have given up,
Tears do not help heal the wounds.

The stiff leg,
The numb hands,
The vomit,
The puddle of urine,
The shit that you can't force out,
The sighs,
The emptiness in your eyes.

I'm terribly angry because I cannot bear to soften my voice because I'm scared that if I do, the wall I've worked so hard to build will crumble in that very second I look right into your hollow eyes.